Monday, June 26, 2006
Depression ain't my game
I am really really depressed. Why?Why? What's the matter with us? What do THEY have that I/We don't have?
What happened? Things happened really fast. Last friday i really had this intuition that things won't be in the right place this monday. I ran kilometers and released lots and lots of sweat just to secure that i'll have that 'slot' Didn't she see that i'm desperate, desperate's over, let's just say that i'm really eager to join. Oh well, that's life -not always sweet-sometimes we need to taste the bitterness of life to discover other stuffs.Pero naman, i know myself. I'm not stupid, i'm not a loser and i hate being rejected,i'm not the type of person who makes SIP SIP 'coz i too hate SIP SIPs, i just love proving myself, proving what i can do but not through the 'STRAW' method..actually sa kanya ko lang ginawa yun and that's useless talaga i shouln't've wasted my saliva Oh well!enough of this melodramatic 'declamation'.things already happened but the reason's so babaw. to give chance. i've been using that phrase for years and years already but i've realized that i don't really know what chances mean.give chance.give chance.whatever. Some things should really be played through d first-come-first serve rule.
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+Thanks to my friend carell, for comforting me..haha!!pero i envy her, she's everybody friend, she gets along with everyone just because of this skill that i can't really learn. xe everytime i do that skill, feeling ko nahahalata ako, parang guilty ba?!
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++Ha! i'll prove myself more pa talaga!!!..This isn't the end of my world.
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+++Sabi nga ni catherine...it's her loss..
HA! this time, i'll be better, pucha, magsusunog na kong kilay! haha. gudluck! tatahimik na in ako! and besides i'm an officer now!
12:33 PM.
